exhuastion.

I'm exhuasted, drained, sick and tired....

I'm breaking apart..... i'm tired.... tired.. fucking tired... so fucking had it with trying..
who appreciates the littlest thing you've done. who fucking pays attention.. who ever cares? who's ever so complacent.. why want so much more, nevers are never enough.. i can't feign it anymore. i'm tired... you read me??? i wished i could disappear for a long while....

why fucking trip me when i'm picking up the pieces.. you know what. fuck everything...

JUST FUCK EVERYTHING.

Just the thinking, it hurts.

Frustrating luh, stupid Bobby keep chewing on my tissues I left lying around the bed awhile ago. Stupid dog. BAH. Ok so far projects have not spared me. But it's the very last one. I am seriously sucked dry. The Band practice today just made me stress even further. 'Cause I just can't seem to sight read properly. After 8, my mind totally drifted away. I'm plainly tired. ):

Today also marks the end of trading in 1st ave for my class and it happened to be an enjoyable day too. Sadly hoho's on mc, and he can't get to tease me : p bleah. This week's gna be a tough one too, with presentations and a mind-dreading test to deal with. Sigh. Wait, it gets harder everyday. ): And the semester's going to end. Year 3 omg. I feel so old again, and now I'm starting to contemplate my future. SIM or Laselle. I've got probably one year more to think through. Sigh. This is dreadful. Degrees. Degrees. Degrees. I. Digress.

I'm tired. Everyday. Seriously need a break after exams. 4 bloody papers. Can't get enough of that seriously. My eyes are shutting already, and if I'm not wrong, there's class later. I think. So time to hit the sack. Ciaos loves.

Letting go didn't halt me from thinking. And it made me learnt a valuable lesson.
Be complacent with whatever you have.
'Cause in reality, nothing's NEVER enough..
We can't want what we always can't have.. That's reality.
To be able to make me smile until today..
I guess, it's more than enough..
Still, I don't know how much longer.
And I'm starting to question myself...
Did I even really let it go? God knows.

Rumbling tummy.

Happy birthday dearest poddy! It's one years old :D and still going strong. LOL, maybe it's time to get a new poddy too. X: Well, it has been with me all this while especially when I'm sad. Thanks podddddy :D Okay, why am I even talking to my ipod. Damn. Must be stress relieving. HAHA. YES. FINALLY, I can say is. RETAIL AD & PROMO IS DOWN!!!! WOOHOO! :D So everyone's taking a short break before the very last project! CUSTOMER RELATIONSHIP MGT, we're COMINGGGGG. Gross. Okay.

My handphone has gone boooonkers like me. The camera is spoilt! ): Time to sent for servicing, hope they don't screw my phone up. Hmm, don't know when will I be going though. It has barely reach the 3rd month and it fucking screwed up. Stupid phone. Seriously take my advice everyone and stop being as stubborn like me, DON'T BUY W910i!!!! Damn. REGRETS. My pod is so much better than my cell. Hmm.

I'm talking so much of rubbish. Anyway, I came home with NO dinner. So now, I'm practically starving mad. Fooooooooooood please? ): Okieeeee. I'm going to lousy Simei to service my phone 'cause I'm tooooo lazy to go down town. Please don't eat my phone up. ): And thanks bf for accompanying me though I feel like so cui and don't feel like heading outdoors but stay home to nuaaaaaa. Hahaha. For the sake of bf and hp! (: Something made me very happy. Guess what? The spree host has sent out our threadless way earlier than last friday!!! :D And I GOT THE SHIRTS I WANT :D So did the rest of my girls :D HUURAYS! Should be coming in during late Feb. Can't wait! I HAVE MANY CLOTHES FOR THE CNY (: But I might not be going visiting again this year. My grandparents are all dead. LOL. Maybe drop down to my Uncle's. Nice pineapple tarts he madeee :D Okie. I shall go food shopping for my family, friends and relatives before CNY(: Share this festive joy around :D

I don't know why. But I feel extremely H A P P Y lately. Especially today! Must be 'caused we finished all the work and were screaming and yelling and touching and smothering each other while doing headers and footers and content pages and aligning and screaming at each other again! :DD Byebye momo days. (Bubbly kid hopping around the campus - ME!)

I LOVE MY ANP GROUP SOMEHOW TOOOO! :D

HAPPYGOLUCKYKID ((((((:

Tea overdose.

This is really bad. I'm down with a cold and it's seriously not of any help 'cause I'm rushing SOOO MUCH work right now. I need to digress awhile before I go insane. I had green apple awhile ago, with a cup of hot tea, to keep me on the go. The pile of work is multiplying like bacteria, think that's why it has gotten me. Deadlines later, Friday, and next Friday. Urg. TESTS. PRESENTATIONS. EXAMS. ): Bad timing.

Things to do (losing track, too much work):
-finish research for cs
-1pg summary for cs
-executive summary for a&p
-crm, crm, crm
-presentation slides
-scripts
-study for summative test
-DANGS. So many things to do in just 1 week. And a DAY. DEADLINES ): Against the ticking hands.

(back to work, enough of distraction.)
To shut it all off and make a run for the door.

Drop off point.

Hi, I am craving for a green apple. And I seem to be procrastinating real much.
I reek of my own pespiration. And I need a bath badly.
Big mozzies on the loose. Damn.
Where art thou, Polaris? :)




Well, you're never gonna find it,
If you're looking for it,
Won't come your way.
Well, you'll never find it,
If you're looking for it.

The thinking hurts so much.
Everyone thinks everyday.
Some don't.
Some are sensible.
And some just couldn't careless.
But me..
I think too much.
My thoughts soon became what they call, wishful thinking.

I'm imagining a cliff, where I stand with my fist clenched tight..
Clinging on to my only hopes I had for you.
I counted down.....
3.. 2... 1....
I slowly loosen my grip..
And painlessly watched it depart and take the flight.
Like dandelion seedlings clinging on and everntually letting go..
They may fall, but they pick themselves up and fly away again.
Even if they fall, they fall to grow.

This fear's so overwhelming..
I'm letting go of everything.

I don't need anyone now.

Collision.

Hurt myself today, but I guess it didn't hurt as much as my heart does. (:

STRESSEDLIKE____.

BLARG. BLOODYHELLSTRESSEDUPNOW!!!!! PROJECTS ARE SREIOUSLY SUICIDAL. KILLMEKILLMEKILLME. DIDN'T KNOW I COULD GET SO STRESSED UP IN SUCH A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME. EVERYTHING PILES UP ON THE SAME FUCKING DAY. BAHHHH. I'D BE OKAY. I WILL BEEEEEE. REALLY... TA MA DE EFFING STRESSED UP NOW )): BURNING MIDNIGHT OIL NOW. MAN, GOT MYSELF INTO SO MUCH SHIT MAN. I SHOULD REALLY STOP PROCRASTINATING. CS, FM, A&P, CRM. WAHLAOEHHHHH. DAMN IT LAR. TA MA DE LAR. LOL. OKOK. REALLY GOING TO BANG THE WALL ALREADY.

Anyway, I didn't ah balling tang yuan today. Damn upset ok. 'Cause they changed plans and went to eat the 99cents sushi place. Lol. I have been wanting to go there to feast too. Not bad eh, Poldars minds alllll think like one. FOOD(: Damn it lar, I'm still craving peanut tang yuan like crazy. Dumb twinnie, thanks for reminding me at this hour. K, need to do research for CS now. To think at this hour, I'd rather D I E. God. Kill me. As always(: Thought of something random to write now,

Top 10 food I'm craving now (in no particular order):
1. SUBWAY!!
2. AH BALLING TANGYUAN LAR!!!
3. DARK CHOCOLATES.
4. MOS CHEESE BURGER!!!!
5. PINEAPPLE TARTS. (cny's coming!)
6. SUSHI AGAIN!
7. A VENTI SIZED CUP OF GREENTEA AND BLACKBERRY JAM FRAP! DAMN ITTT.
8. CHEESE PRATA! WTFFFF.
9. BEN AND JERRY'S CHOCOLATE FUDGE BROWNIE. ARRRG.
10. OPP. SCH, HEXING'S SI CHUAN SUAN LA TANG!

Hahaha. Damn f-random can. Now I'm uber hungry. HAHAHA. Okay, nuff with fooling around. Stupid girl. Tatas.

Be okay, please.

Everyday I fight these feelings.

Did you stop to smell the flowers today..?

Before I hit the sack and disturb somebody's sleep further, a short one. Today is the day when I finally gathered all my guts to open my mouth to ask mum for lunch. And I told her everything I had gone through the past weeks. Things got better indeed. I can't believe I let myself go through all the misery when I can be so much better than this. I'd carry on picking up then. Life's always about the ups and downs. It goes on with or without you.

Anyway, project season is here again. Don't overwork okay, 'cause I myself feel the stress level hitting the brim. I'm training my inner peace. Like, OOOOHMMM. Get it? Lol. Reports after reports. Editing, presentations, assignments. EXAMINATIONS, after cny. Sigh. School is gross. I got back all the results. Couple of As, a borderline C and an almost D, which is an F. Yeah. Whatever. I'm aiming the As this semester. Go jols :D Because of the borderline Cs and the 2 cocky CDS-es I've taken past sems have resulted in the bad GPA, I'm going to make it up this semester. And also improve on alllll marketing modules. Suck real bad at those. Okay, enough of school. It's really gross.

Tomorrow, or later would be a jam-packed day. 10AM and bums up to get ready for school. Long one ahead. Then jogging after school and lastly. AH BALLING AT 85!! POLDARS, AH BALLINGGGGG :D TANGYUAN! :D Okay, waiting for my peanut tangyuan. So I go sleep now okay? :D Nights.





Halt, just halt.
Be sensible.

Life's so sad, afterall.

Hmm.. I'd always have faith that things would be better after I stumble. Well, afterall I do have to pick up the pieces slowly and that's just what I am doing now. Like they always say, you can't be always running away from truths, you have to face it. I've suffer so much setbacks, but this is by far the worse. When everything, literally, EVERYTHING falls apart.. And I have not much of a choice to turn to, I still have to put up a strong front.. Who could possibly understand what lies behind a smile? But I'd always hope time would heal even though it'll etched me with marks. I'm still chasing the light, before I stumble into pitch black darkness.. Isn't this the hardest part of living.

I still can't make myself to talk to anyone at home. I just REFUSE to, and I'm sorry if I've become dumb.

I can't believe that a phonecall could actually leave me speechless and that it could change everything. I really don't know what can I do now. I thought to myself how selfish I was and it made me realise the importance of being human, least. I wish I could buy the time we've let go so much. 3 months just whizzed past, how long more are we going to wait?

I have always forgetten the ones whom actually cares for me. We are just unaware how we take things for granted. Now that I realise, a simple message could actually bring a smile across my face. The simplest little things that could bring you back together. And I really just don't know how to appreciate it.

I'm that selfish.
Even to myself.

To make myself wait for naught. How ignorant I am to these advices. Am I going to continue on, 4 years? 10? I really don't know. If finding someone new was that easy, I would have left you long ago. I wouldn't be stuck still thinking how are you and are you okay. Somehow I just need a tight slap in the face by reality to make me wake up. Or I'll just be drowning in this never ending bottomless pit, the losing end, no endless. Falling and still falling down.

And STILL falling.....

Like I wouldn't even hurt. Anyway, I've gathered all my thoughts. Just live like a disease in my heart. I won't budge, but I know when it's time. When to cure or go.. I only live in my regrets, I know..

Anyway, another day in school later. 1st Ave day. Hmm. And I need to clean up my A&P report. That sucks. Hope it doesn't rain anymore, I want to escape.



I'm sorry everyday.

Time broke my heart.

Stupid gay peach walls. Like why do you even ask me what colour do I want for my bedroom walls when it's painted the same as his bedroom. It defeats the purpose of asking seriously. Arg. My room looks even more gay and too bright now. Stupid peach walls. Stupid. STUPID. Forget it. I hate this home, and I hate my room now even more. ):

Bizguides was a bore though I made new friends. And heaven cried at the wrong time. While playing during openhouse, it kept drizzling. Until we finished, it halt. Must be the terrible pieces we played. Guess it's cursed as it happened last year too. Well, the band needs the rain to pack up faster! Lol, what a funny sight. We beat the record of clearing in less then 5 mins when we usually take 10. : D Wasted time and went Ikea for some fat meatballs. And they all went loose. They gave me a new hobby which is bed jumping. Pooooof. Weeeeeeeeee. Sigh. Fun ends.

I'm facing these four walls again. Wish to really getttttt out. I'm dreading Saturday.
It's going to be a boring day later. Why everyone's so busy when I'm so free ): If everyone goes home, I'm going to blade alone. Tatas.

Coincidental?

Baby, don't move.

buttercup says (1:09 AM):
ooooh buttercup is a flower?!
buttercup says (1:09 AM):
haha
soaked in glucose says (1:10 AM):
lols. i thought its a powerpuff
buttercup says (1:10 AM):
HAHAHA

Haha. Random nonsense while struggling with report writing. Still after much nonsense, I'm done with my part! Thanks twinlove(: for cleaning up and the rest of the shit yadah yadah. Lol. Lucky it's approved. Just need to add on stuff. A&P. DOWN, for me. Hope we can do up the presentation slides asap. And then bye A&P! :d Speaking about this stupid module. I got a big fat F for it. Lol. On the other hand, CRM which is related to A&P, I've got the other extreme. A! YEAH BABY. This is not a miracle fyi, this called, hardwork. LOL(: The irony. Poot.

Doing school work with friends 'causes so much friction. But I have to keep in mind that work does not equals to play. Work equals to work, and play equals to play(: So.... I'm sorry if I threw my temper around or had arguments with anyone. It's really inner frustrations which I really didn't mean to vent it all out. I reallyam not in the best of moods lately. BUT THEN.... Everything will end soon!!! All the best, my friends! Please, please, pleaseeeeee forgive me.

I realised my problems are piling up. My family has become a burden, I don't seem to be communicating to anyone at home now. And I hate to go home now. School's an extra heavy load I have to cope with and Band on the other hand, scares me now. All the weight on my shoulder, lift it up for me? My shoulder's breaking. Forget it... I still have yet to find my tree. The place where that tree I have in mind is kinda inaccessible. I'm still finding one to talk to. Hmm. So I didn't find my tree today. But I think I found one while night-blading. I would check it out in the evening next week 'cause the weekends are packed. What do I have to do on Sunday?? I can't even recall. Nvm.

Oh yeah, night-blading. I spent 2 hours almost trying to get myself lost around the area. Well, I think it had been by far the best escape. It's nice just exploring places where no one can find me, blading past eerie construction sites (they were really dark) and places I never thought I would find myself to be at, and the night sky is just above me! I would do it more often now, just blading down the empty concrete pavements and gliding along the night skyline. Stars were so bright at such dark places! :D I really felt so much better, singing to the plants by the pathways, smelling the dense mid-night air, gliding left to right. Though the aftermath of blading for 2 hours are the blisters. ARG... ZZZ. Damn, and just when I thought I saw a UFO. LOL, nahs.. It's just a happy man flying his car-re-fuuuu areoplane. LOL.. Looks nice among the stars too. ((: Finally. Inner peace(:

Well, I'm beat. It's going to be a long day at school later. Just hope I can get my rest later.
Insomnia is taking it's toll on me. My face is sunken and swelling. ): Nights.

Tears in heaven, rain.

I am going to find lonely tree later. No I am not insane.
Why are you so lonely?

Welcoming death.

It's raining so heavily now, I wish I can head down for a walk.

My world is spinning around me too fast.
Dizzy.
And I know the only way to halt..

I'm welcoming death with open arms..
I don't even care how you can kill me.
I really don't mind.

I'll be more than happy.

So what if I'm selfish.
I had enough of being in a selfish world on my own..
I can't give in everyday.
I'M ONLY HUMAN.
And so much for putting up a strong front.

I am such a phony.
God, I can't feel anymore.
Death wouldn't hurt abit I know...

If only I could solve the sole problem that is creating such a wreck within the space of my heart.
I guess it's just me against myself.

I think my heart just dropped into a galon of tar.
Deep, dark and poisoned.
I think it got burnt in fire.
Supressed, ashen and brittle.

Hmm, what I wish to have now.
A bed of tulips.
Lush green grass.
Inner peace.

A walk to the moon would be good too.
I wonder, will the gates open up for me..

there's nobody singing to me.

The walls of my home feels so foreign now. They white-washed it. So, bye warm walls. Hmmm. I missed the dirty warm walls. Makes everything seem so homely. Now I feel so intimidated by these 4, no or more white walls. They're so BLANK and EMPTY. Hope they quickly coat on the mellow yellow paint 'cause I can't stand the emptiness. I can't wait for my gray walls(: Speaking of paint, my house looks more like a warzone now. And it reeks of paint, duh.

I went for a stroll after I got down the bus, again. I walked down the empty street, and underneath orange street lights glimmering through the canopy of the rustling leaves. I lay on the sit-up benches, and looked at sky. It was so clear today, and just decided to sit around and star-gazed though there's not a lot of stars to see. Runaway world, that's my favourite place to be. Drowning in heavy drumbeats and strummings, and there's people singing to me.. Hmmhmmhmm.

Actually I feel very happy today(: I feel more than contented, despite the fact I was frustrated over some stuff at 1st Avenue during assessment today. Whatever lar huh, bygones be by gones. I enjoyed tending the Mama Shop. Looks like everyone enjoyed 'Ticum Ticum' huh? Lol. Damn funny whenever anyone picked the 'Thank You. Please try again' paper. LOL. Then they get so bahhhbahhhblahhh and then they pay more to try get something. Lol, and when they won a packet of sweets finally, they just go DIAO. They're facial expression, PRICELESS. LOL. Sales was not bad too, but I hate the fact that I still have to do float count and the other non-cashering/pos stuff when we already installed a pos system in 1st Avenue?! ZZZ. What the heck huh? LOL. Hmm. I hate to brag, lol, but I got praised by hoho for being so enthusiastic. HHAHA. (: And that T01 was really supportive and encouraging throughout the whole assessment today. hoho loves T01(: Hurrays! I saw Roche after class today too. LOL he came by and chatted with jacq and I. And guessed what I swear he made me the happiest girl today please. LOL, he said I have lost weight!!! LOL YAY. ROCHE IS LOVE HAHA. Ran from LT for Bguides to Bandroom for dinner and rehersal. LOL. Damn freaking hungry and that was the practically the first meal for the day! BOY! the food was good, maybe 'cause I was too hungry. Hmmm thanks darling Seehua for reserving dinner for the hungry girl. LOL (:

Rehersal yadah, and went for desserts opposite school with Qinghui and Seehua. We spilled our hearts out at emo playground. Hmm, that place is filled with my sorrows, pain and joy. My band memories lies within this plains. Next semester might be a different story, 'cause most of them are graduating from poly. Hmm)): Will I still even be in band..? Who knows. Good night, finished being happy. I'm going to drown in pain.

I'm a creep, I'm a loser.
Can't you see I can't feign it anymore.
I'm already losing my all.
Every single truth I hold still hurts.
Who ever told you the hurt you sold can never be supressed.
I'm only human, and I still do HURT.
Only etched with marks..
I FEEL. I feel the pain..
You know what, only you can stop me now.
But now, how.

I admit, I'm such a imbecile for loving you, do you even know that.
I bet you knew.
God knows why I'm still hanging on.
Almost TWO years, never did I once try to just move along.
Every time I just spent my time here crying my heart out to you.
Is this even worth, when you don't even care.
Call me stpid.
Call me dumbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.
A dumbfuck.
I'm am such an imbecile really.
I'm just waiting for naught.

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
You coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what i've gotta face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face

It will soon be over, right silly? : )

Irony.

You can be such a prick.

I'm still awake at this hour, and I just can't sleep even if I go to bed now. Had too much late nights. Boo. Wanted to go Dempsey today, but my butt decided to stick around at home. Well, I wasted the time sitting infront of the big ass black box, sobbing over emotional k-dramas. What a sponger.

(after 10minutes of staring.)

Zzz. I can't sleep still. Sigh.

My baby brother Sister came to chat with me tonight. He just made me realise how much changes there are now. I hope you're fine! We'll meet up soon, promise? Cannot neglect anymore friends who still care for me. Yeah, we watched ourselves and the people around us grow up huh. I wonder... How buff have you become, huh? Lol.

Anyway, I feel much better. The time now is 3.40AM. I have so many more things to do when I wake up. There's project meeting at 12, trading assessment starts today too. Hope I won't keesiao at 1st Avenue later. Must stay vigilant and agile for at least 4 hours. Hmm, 6. I have Bizguides briefing and band rehersal. Where should I go? Drag. Always getting myself into so much trouble. Hmm, no I should say, trouble ALWAYS finds me. Sigh. Damn Monday.

I think I shall try to sleep now, even if I can't. Got to get my ass outta bed at 10AM later.

Oh, painters are coming over to re-paint the walls. Mmmm. New colours all over the walls and ceiling. Can't wait to see the home getting all brighten up. Goodbye warm walls.

My gray walls. Hello. Hello. (:

Ciao.

I will be this happy today.

Damn the irony.
The songs I written were for you, now you're here to compose them for me.
Damn the irony.
I'm wondering, are we feigning it?

Better than this.

15 storeys up. I can stay here all night.

Feigning that I'm okay.
Is not good....
I'm not okay.

If only it could just sweep me of my feet.
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this..

And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you.

Everything, you're everything?
I'm drowning in this whirlpool of thoughts.
Pick me up before I sink to the bottom.

You got me off the ground.
Why won't you let me plunge to the ground.
Let me hit the ground.

I can't stop pouring.
Can't stop crying my heart out.
Make it halt?

I wished everything vanish without a trace, and the wait was over.
Ican't even make out what I'm trying to say.
All the contradictions turning me into this endless ruminating beast.
what the hell am I saying..

Never once let it go.

Hurt myself again today and the worst part is there's no one else to blame..

爱 如果失去了伤害..
jianeng ; blue fish says (9:38 PM):
if love loses hurt
jianeng ; blue fish says (9:38 PM):
it would be come a beautiful love
jianeng ; blue fish says (9:39 PM):
but beautiful love is only possible because hurt makes us realise wht is beautiful

Words by bf..
Oh, love so beautiful, it hurts..

Have you read what I've been trying to let out for so long? Sigh.
I have done it again.
I have been here many times before..
Don't know why this is so hard, and why I'm trying so hard.
What happens next? Can't I get an answer?

Since that day, I just keep on thinking till my head hurts so bad. Falling asleep after feeling so lethargic for thinking so much. I can't rest in peace. I decided to stroll the nights to keep me calm. Secret Garden's music soothed me pretty much.. Let the day vanish..

I hate school. ):

2008

So this is the new year, I hope everything would be better. The pain I bear, and the stitches I sewn just keep getting ripped open by my insanity.. My deepest darkest secrets still reeks in my ashen heart.

Will it eventually go away.
May I rewind?
Would you let me?

My heart has been left astray for this past year, I don't know how it feels now. Have I been waiting for so long, haven't I? Why did I. I don't know how to go about this anymore. This person had been in my heart for a very long time, but I guess he doesn't realise. Well, maybe he does, but I reckoned he can't do anything too, 'cause I'm the only one left here standing.. I made a promise to move on, but I never really did. I let myself live in denial and deceive. Even at times when I stop thinking, his presence still lingers. And never once did I let go.... I just felt that no one could replace him even though how much hurt was done and having to go through the pain. No matter how broken or tattered I am, I still let it live. I still let it live, 'cause I can't take any more rejections. I had it too many times. So, I just had to drown myself in bitter silence, and it's really sad 'cause can't help myself. I feel sorry everyday..

Him and I, I guessed we went through much together.. Almost 2 years of memories. I remebered the times of course, when we were all laughing and goofing around. And also the times of hardship, gradually leading into tears and avoidance. But now we're friends, and I'm more than glad that it ended this way. We saved a friendship we've built and I thank you for that. I still wonder what you're thinking, but I guess the importance you place in me is not there anymore.. Don't be afraid, I just want to let it all out and that actually I'm still holding on some hope. But I think there's not much of a light I see. It's okay 'cause no one can help me and I can't help myself.. I just need so much more time, will God give it to me? Haha.. But I wished this ends sooner. If you're reading this, do you know that I'm referring to you? (: Whatever. It's okay. Even if after gorging my heart out just to let you understand how much I felt and there after the distance, I really don't mind. Just as long as I keep myself sane from my deceitful heart. My mind can't think anymore.. And I can't follow my heart. Time, it's time I let go. Just help me ease the pain. Save me from tears, the ink and the hurt. So time, won't you take the lead?

People, they've came into my live, but they left me eventually.. And some I've watched them change. And they've changed their feelings for me too. My friends, some decided to stay by me, I really am thankful for them. So much I cherish every single moment and time we spent together. My best friend decided to walk out of my life, but hey I got so much in return. I got closer to my gf(: my bandmates are the gems and my poldars stood by me, gave me so much moral support and soooo much laughters, so loud that I couldn't hear myself and also my troubles. And one most important guy, Kannan(: Who kept me safe and happy throughout this year. I LOVE MY BF(((: How can I forget all of you guys?! Well... I am really complacent with the friends and family lovings(: Thanks for 2007. Time to bid farewell to it.. (:

A new start.

重来? (:


PS:
Pardon me for the heart spill. LOL.
Happy 2008(: